Sunday, June 27, 2010

157-161 The Final Days

My bags are packed. The car is loaded down with them. I'm a shower, an attempted sleep, and a car ride away from leaving. Words cannot explain how I'm feeling right now. I'm so excited to see my family, my pets, and a few select other people especially, I'm ready to take on living alone, Senior year, and to see where my life will take me next.  At the same time I'm going to miss my life here so much. I'm going to miss the freedom, the lack of responsibilities. And I'm scared of losing the person I've found in myself here. I'm happy, like I haven't been, possibly ever. I've found confidence I never knew I had and I'm excited about life. I'm interested to see how my relationships with people will change back home. If I'm not the same, will I still get along with the same people? Will I find comfort and fun from the same group of people? I love my friends, and I'm very excited to see them. I just wonder what new doors will be opened for me now.

Wednesday afternoon we went to Linda's friend's house for Sankt Hans.  Sankt Hans is the annual celebration to burn the witches back to Germany. It's believed that on the longest day of the year evil and magical spirits are arisen, therefore the burning is for this reason and just as a reminder of the witches burned so long ago.  It was such a nice night. Luckily people spoke English and there were kids close to my age. It was weird because I was actually the oldest of the young people, by three years even. Around 9 we went out to the bonfire to watch the burning. It was a huge fire, very cool, but kind of creepy to watch her burn. After we hung out the rest of the night drinking and getting to know each other. I don't think we went to bed till around 3 or so. It's nice making connections over here for when I make it back or if they're ever in the states (notice the when, not if).

The next day we slept in a bit and headed home. We were both exhausted so the afternoon was spent drinking coffee and relaxing. It was beautiful out so Linda went to the summer house, I stuck around and worked out some. That night was the unfortunate Japanese v Danish soccer game, the Danish lost if you didn't know. Friday Linda had to work so I hung out and rearranged some things I had packed during the day, that afternoon was again decently nice so we went to the summer house for just a bit. We got another decent day on Saturday. In the morning, we ran errands and then hung out a bit, I finished packing officially, before going to the summer house again.  I helped plant some herbs and such which was fun. Oh! One of the errands was to a place that sells all sorts of plants; one of the most beautiful farms I've ever seen. The property was huge. Old European farms are officially my love now. Sorry I don't have pictures. The colony house was nice though and I have learned a bit, I hope to grow my own herbs to cook with at home. Last night, just consisted of wine and relaxing.

This brings us to today, my last day in Europe. We got up early and went to the Scandinavian Deer Park. It was beautiful out and such a nice day. They had deer (obvs), wolves, polar bears, brown bears, fox, moose, and more. The brown bears were absolutely adorable though. It was nice to spend the last day out in the sun and enjoying Denmark. We bought some real danishes (NOTHING like that thing they sell in the states) and enjoyed coffee and stuffing ourselves. For dinner Linda made veggie burgers and new potatoes (another new love from here). I stuffed my stuff from today in my bag, loaded the car, and now just have my shower left to take. It's been the perfect last day here, especially considering I still don't believe I'll be leaving for the airport in 6 hours. Ugh. 

I am so thankful for my time here. Paris was so rough for me. I didn't fall in love with it like others, and I don't really miss the city. It was the hardest growing experience I've ever had. I miss a few of the people I met there, but thanks to Dany and many of the French, it's not a place that I will be itching to return to. Everyone needs one of those experiences. I don't regret it, I've embraced the things I learned for myself. Denmark has been a blessing. I do believe that if I left for home right after Paris I would struggle to recall my experience as a positive one. I will never be able to express how thankful I am of Linda letting me in her home for 6 whole weeks. Italy, Ireland, Belgium, and France were beautiful, but I don't know what it was about these past 6 weeks, they were just amazing. I wish I could share the feelings I have about this place with everyone. I've seen so much, yet so little, of Europe and feel so incredibly blessed to have the chance. I cannot wait to see more. I cannot wait to see where my life takes me now. I feel different. I can't explain it, but I hope those of you at home see it. I truly appreciate those who have taken this journey with me, through my blog, through daily chats, through random wall posts just checking in. It scares me to stop writing because it's one more closure to this adventure.

A look through some of my favorite memories in the last 5 1/2 months:

Meeting Sasha (& Maggie of course too)
Seeing the Eiffel Tower for the first time & making some amazing friends
first real night out
the amazing art I've seen
France v Spain with Kirsten
getting a tattoo in Ireland
spring break with Sasha (complete with Pizza fights in Rome & almost bar fights in Florence)
seeing Grace on Spring Break
Lauren coming to Paris
this beautiful day in Paris, and all my memories with Keshia
Belgium with Maggie; & all of our nights trying to convince ourselves to go out. And of course the night that the wine was really champagne.
Giverny
Ellie coming to Paris
These two, and our absolutely amazing Thursday nights.
Le Bar 10 and all of these people
Angelina's!! And the two most amazing girls I met.
Vejle & Copenhagen with Ellie (including ba ba black sheep, bugs injecting themselves in my eye, and more)
Lego Land
Meeting Alex again after 16 years
Holland (meeting amazing family and experiencing Amsterdam)
The Aros Museum
Meeting my cousin Eric after 16 years
Sankt Hans
The Scandinavian Deer Park

My life in the last 5 1/2 months down to 24 pictures. There is so much that even my 3,500 pictures cannot tell though.


Until the next adventure: returning home. ♥

Tuesday, June 22, 2010

Days 146-156

"I need to update my blog. I need to update it...really"  Yeah been thinking that for like 5 days now. Oops. I've done so well updating about every day for my own memory-sake, I can't fail at the very end.

So back to day 146, which was June 12th. It was raining but Linda and I went to see this Viking event in Jelling (pronounced Yelling). The event was a lot smaller than we thought it would be. But there were a bunch of Icelandic horses, which were adorable. They are a shorter breed, not much taller than what you would think of a pony being. They are horses though, and I now want one. Haha. I also tried my hand at spinning wool. My parents have alpacas and you have to spin their fiber into yarn and such. Yeah, one of the hardest things I've ever tried. Fail. Fail. Fail. I think I'll stick with helping with naming them and putting up a website if my parents decide they want one. On Sunday, Linda had some friends over for lunch along with my cousin Eric and his girlfriend. I spent the morning going through my stuff, and PACKING. Yes, I actually packed about 85% of my stuff :) Anything I didn't think I would need was thrown in a bag, I'm sure this Sunday when I'm trying to get the rest of it to fit I'll just end up redoing it all, but it's the thought that counts ;) Lunch was fun. Susan, Linda's friend, is from NH so it was nice to not have a language barrier. I think lunch ended up being around 3 hours though, craziness. It's always good getting to spend time with Eric or Alex though.

Monday, I worked out and spent the afternoon watching Denmark play Holland in the World Cup. A rather amusing match I must say. I didn't really have a favorite because though I'm loving Denmark, my family is from Holland, so yay Holland?? Tuesday, I worked out, though I was in a lot of pain from the work out the day before, and hung out in the morning till Linda got home. That afternoon we went to the colony house to check on the plants. It was raining/cloudy so I don't think we were there long.

Wednesday, is where my life got a little more fun. I took a train out to Odense to visit Camilla and Alex, mostly Camilla because Alex was at work. But I got into the train station and we went grocery shopping before heading out to her parent's house.  This is one of the most beautiful houses I've ever seen. It is a really old farm house...picture an old European farm house, and that's exactly what it looks like. Her mom was really sweet too; she doesn't know much English but tried anyway to talk to me. :) She put out all kinds of sandwiches, home made jam, etc They told me I had to eat because my family couldn't think I was being starved in Europe. Haha One of their cats also just had kittens, so you know I had too much fun playing with them. I want another kitten SO bad (restraining myself from doing so though......so far). After, we headed back to her and Alex's place and just hung out till he got home. After dinner, they took me down to the park area where everyone hangs out when the weather is good. We got ice cream and walked around the park, buttttt it started getting chilly out. Alex took me by his university so I could see it. It was basically one large building from what I could tell, but pretty big at the same time. From there we grabbed coffee at a cafe near the apartment before going back, watching "The Cave" (a strange scary movie), and going to bed. Overall, a very nice day :)

The next morning, I spent talking to a certain someone in the states while Camilla worked on job application things, the day before she'd gotten good news on two possible jobs (one of which is really far from her though), so I took it as a sign that she'll hopefully find something soon. We headed in town to do some shopping (all window shopping haha) and kill the time before I had to leave. They had just put in a new bakery so we grabbed something there and just sat and talked for a while. I grabbed an iced coffee and then the train around 2:00 to make it back in time for Linda to be getting out of work. I really enjoyed spending time with Camilla and Alex. Though conversation was hard at some points, just having family my age to spend time with is nice. I told them they have to come visit ASAP. Haha. Unfortunately, I don't get to see them again to say bye because Alex has a last minute business trip to the states (ironically) but he gets back in late Sunday. :( It's been nice to see them the bit that I could though.

Friday, I met up with Eric in town and got to see where he works, a small theater which is really nice actually. We grabbed some beer and headed back to his apartment and hung out a while before ordering pizza. A little later his friends started showing up for a party. There apartment is about the size of a dorm room, so it was interesting, plus many of the people didn't speak great English. It was fun though. Nice to again hang out with people closer to my age, though most were younger than me which NEVER happens. But during the late afternoon I also got the news that a close friend of my family, Richard Thompson, had committed suicide 2 days before. I was rather worried about my sister, and of course in a little bit of disbelief myself, so when Linda was done at her small work party, around 10, I headed home with her. I still had a really good time though, and it was nice to be extended an invite.

The next morning Linda and I went an hour and a half out to the west coast of Denmark. There are sand sculptures there that are very cool. I'll post a pic of one. I don't care if being excited to see them made me seem like I'm 12. :P Kid at heart, always. We grabbed lunch at an Italian buffet which was only 44 krones (around $7), though my glass of water was another 18 krones on top of that. They had vegetarian stuff, so I was happy. Then we walked down to the ocean, the North Sea to be exact. I've been rather stressed about certain aspects about going home, but the ocean was just what I needed to make that go away. Freshman year I used to go out to Sand Beach at all hours of the night when things got hard, the ocean has always been a bit of a savior in my life. I see many trips to Sand Beach in my near future. There is just something about the ocean. The waves there were huge too, the biggest I've seen. After, we went another 2 1/2 hours to where Linda thought was an alpaca farm, it turned out to be angora goats, but they were adorable. The owner caught the baby for me to see, he was so cute. I couldn't believe how easy it was to handle them. We were both exhausted by then so headed home.


Sunday was a lazy day. We went grocery shopping and fought with the internet much of the rest of the day. It was so strange. I could get on skype to message people and facebook would work, but NO other websites would work, no skype calling, no email....so weird. It's back to working for now though. Haywire internet. I was supposed to have a skype date with my friend Ben who is in the navy in South Carolina, butttt of course the internet started working again right after we'd given up on trying it. :( I'll be in the same time zone soon anyway so it'll be easier to talk. Plus he'll be home for leave soon :)  

A bit of a back story, last week a whale got stuck in the harbor-like area of Vejle. It cause quite the commotion. People wanted it put down....though there are no real successful methods to do so because they have hearts the size of cars, so either attach dynamite to it and blow it up, or let it die. Well it finally died the other day and now there is a huge debate on where it's going to end up. Copenhagen wants it because "the students there have never gotten to see anything like it." Well HELLO Vejle kids haven't either. Plus Vejle firefighters are the ones that went through all the work of getting it out of the water, and now it's Vejle people dissecting it. Yes, Copenhagen is the capital, but I mean really they should not get everything. Eric read somewhere how Copenhagen people were complaining that their people weren't getting to experience it...I have no words for this but...seriously?!? Anyways, we'll just have to see what happens.

Yesterday, I worked out and then went downtown to meet up with Eric again to say goodbye :( Before lunch we went to check out the whale. It was a strange site. For one, they were dissecting it, and two it looked rather deflated. I think we were there all of 2 seconds. Haha After, we went to a cafe to grab lunch; tuna sandwiches on bagels with elderberry flower smoothies. Delicious :) From there we walked to the hospital to meet up with Linda, she was just getting off work. I said my goodbyes to Eric and then Linda and I headed to the hardware store, the colony house, then home. I can't believe I'm already saying bye to people here...I feel like I just got here. I do feel like it's been forever since I've been home, but at the same time it's flown by. This time next week I'll be waking up at my parent's house...crazy. (I'll try to remember to post the pic of Eric and me after I upload it)

I really need to clone myself for the first two weeks there though. I have to move into my place, but at the same time there are a million people I want to see. Figuring out how I'm going to get moved should be interesting, I guess it's not a huge rush, but I would like to get my own place set up and everything before I go back to work on the 11th.

As far as today, I worked out this morning and now just doing this and hanging out till Linda gets home from work. I think we're going back out to the colony house this afternoon. A nice relaxing day. Tomorrow starts (?) the annual festival in Denmark where they set up bonfires and burn the witches back to Germany. Linda doesn't really know the history behind it, so I'll try to look it up before I update again. :)

Sunday will be my last update from Europe, it'll probably be while I can't sleep and am just sitting up awake. I think I have to be at the airport around 4 am anyway...maybe I'll get an hour or two of sleep, Haha.


Until the next time....& the last time from Europe :( ♥  

Friday, June 11, 2010

Days 131-145

Forever later, another update. I just haven't had the motivation. This will probably be pretty straight to the point cause I just haven't had the spark to write lately, well except I oddly got the motivation at like 2:30 this morning...terrible timing. But that's a whole other matter. We shall see if I can accurately put together the last 2 weeks...Oops. (time flies)

The Friday after I last updated we did just as I said, ran errands: post office, groceries for the trip, fish for Linda's pond, etc. From there we went to the garden house to get the fish settled and I don't believe we did much else for the rest of the day. On Saturday a coworker of her's got married. The church was set up on a hill looking over surrounding fields, very pretty & very European.  The wedding was nice. I mean I couldn't understand anything being said (until "Can You Feel the Love Tonight" was sung [i was super excited for that of course]) but it was pretty. The pastor was apparently cracking jokes the whole time.  But the wedding was basically the same as an American one, except for at the beginning the bride and groom were sitting and pastor was just speaking. After the initial ceremony the women from Linda's work held flags and roses as the bride left. I got the job of photographer. After we headed home, grabbed lunch, packed the car, and hit the road for Holland!! Luckily, on the way there, we didn't hit much traffic. The GPS got us pretty smoothly to our hotel in Germany and we only stopped like once on the way there. The hotel was super nice and pretty vacant. We curled up to watch the Eurovision finals.  In case you didn't know, Lena from Germany won. She was cute. I liked the fact that she didn't expect it and was in genuine shock about it. Also, it was cool to be in Germany when it happened.

Sunday we ate breakfast at the hotel and hit the road, an interesting conversation on the way of course was necessary. :P  On the way, we stopped in Wormerveer, Holland which is supposedly where my family, the "Wayboers," are originally from. It was raining so we didn't walk around for very long. Plus the one place we tried to get food, the guy was wicked rude. He clearly only spoke Dutch but instead of trying to get that across, he just turned his back to us. His loss. So we hit the road for Wim and Winnie's (pronounced Vim and Vinnie).  Wim's grandmother, I believe, was my great-grandmother's sister. Hopefully I have that right.  We got there a bit early but the family spoiling began. I don't think I've ever eaten so much over such few days. But we spent that night just getting to know each other, well Linda and them catching up and them getting to know me. They bought all 100% vegetarian things to cook well we were there. It was so nice of them. We drank wine and just enjoyed each other's company. It was so nice to get to know my more extended family because I haven't really felt that connection since I was little, and never with this side of the family.

On Monday I fell in love with Amsterdam. No, but really, I did.  It was cloudy and I was exhausted, but none the less, I love that city. None of the atms would let me take out money, so I had to go to travelex and take out WAY more than I wanted, but other than that everything went really well. We were going to do the hop on hop off bus like Ellie and I did in Copenhagen but when we went to buy it we did a hop on hop off canal boat instead. If I ever go back I'll do the paddle boats instead of the big boats, either way, by boat is definitely a better way to see the city. First we went to the Van Gogh museum, on the way seeing the "Amsterdam" sign that I had seen in so many of my friend's pictures from when they went. The Van Gogh museum was expensive and disappointing to be honest. I would definitely recommend skipping out on it and exploring more of the other parts of the city. It just wasn't set up well and was so small for the money. I got to see where my great-grandparents (my dad's dad's parents) grew up though which was really cool. I'm learning a lot about my family by being in Denmark. We also made it to Dame's Square (I think that's what it's called) and eventually the Anne Frank house. The Anne Frank house was an experience in itself. I would put it on my top experiences in Europe. Linda said there used to be pictures of the bodies from the Holocaust, those have been removed, but I kind of wish they were still there. But still there were excerpts of her diary all through out the house and things like pictures she had put on her wall to "decorate" were there. I'm really glad we made the time to see it. Oh yeah and there is a "Homomonument" that I want to share with all of you the message for "Commemorates all women and men ever oppressed and persecuted because of their homosexuality. Supports the international lesbian and gay movements in their struggle against contempt, discrimination, and oppression. Demonstrates that we are not alone. Calls for permanent vigilance. Past, present, and future by the 3 triangles on this square" I just found it moving. And I also like the fact that this is right in the city, not hidden, they aren't afraid to show what they stand for. Though I am not homosexual, I strongly believe in the equal rights for all of us. I love the liberal mind of a lot of Europe. Anyway, when we got back to Wim & Winnie's, my cousin/their daughter Anoek was there. It was really nice getting to know a cousin my age. She is working in a cancer ward of a hospital and working on finding a job so she can live with her boyfriend. We spent this night, again, just relaxing.

We were back on the road on Tuesday. First, we stopped in to see my cousin, Tante Joke (pronounced Yoka). Her mother was my great-grandmother's sister (not the same sister as Wim's grandmother though, are you confused yet?). She was so sweet. She took us for coffee and insisted on feeding us several times, this was the day I got fed so much that I felt sick. But you just can't say no. She was darling. I don't know how else to explain it. I also met her granddaughter who happened to be working in the hair salon right by where we got coffee. After lunch, see food food food :(, we headed out to my uncle Hans', pretty sure he's really a cousin too, but "uncle" nonetheless. On the way, we stopped in Culemborg, where my dad's dad's mother's family, the deBeus's are from (i hope you understand why i'm so confused by my family). It was a quaint little town, and really nice to walk around in for a bit. When we got to Uncle Hans apartment they gave us coffee and more snacks while we chatted. It was nice talking to him because he was really curious about what I was doing and about my family. We ate dinner, again vegetarian (YESSSS) and huge btw, by this time I just wanted to go for a long run. But we went for a drive to see the area. We went through a twisting area where I had the joy of seeing a man, probably in his 50s, out for a run. Fine, right? Yeah except he remembered a shirt but managed to forget pants...& underwear. I didn't share this discovery with the rest of the car.  A little bit too free-willed perhaps? Anyway, we stopped in a town called Ravenstein, which has been around for 650 years as of this year. When we parked the car it was at a small park area and I saw a girl doing a photo shoot. There is also the cool art stuff here like in Denmark, in the park was an older car, decorated, and placed in the middle of the pond. We walked around and stopped for some tea. Once we got back to their apartment they set out wine and more food to chat some more. I indulged only in the wine and a few pretzels that were stuffed with peanut butter (i miss peanut butter) before heading to bed, what a long day of socializing, and food. A good day nonetheless, however.

The next morning we had breakfast and then  I FINALLY got to talk to someone back home so spent the morning doing that (sorry mom) before we packed up and hit the road. We decided to go to an Open-Air museum, which I had never really heard of. The "museum" is really an area set up to look like areas of the country years and years ago. They had schools, houses, farms, laundry houses, animals, old windmills, and more. There were also people demonstrating some of the old tasks, it was definitely a nice way to spend the afternoon. Some of the buildings were even from the areas where my family is from. After, we headed back to Wim and Winnie's for our last Holland night. It was, thankfully, beautiful out, so we sat outside basking in the sun for a while before dinner. Not long after dinner however, Linda and I were both passed out. The drive back on Thursday was NOT fun. It is supposed to take around eight hours for us to get home...thanks to traffic and construction, it took us 12. And of course it decided to be sunny, so we were baking. I felt kind of bad, because I did pass out for an hour or two of it. We finally made it back though, stopping for some groceries, ate dinner, and as far as I remember were in bed not long after. I managed to read 2 books in 4 days thanks to all the car time.

Friday through Sunday were all pretty much the same. It was absolutely beautiful outside so we went to Linda's garden house each day and she worked a lot on her gardens, I helped a little, but mostly read and laid out in the sun.  I've gotten some nice color after having spent 4 months in dreary Paris...but now it's dreary Denmark so we'll see how long it lasts. It was absolutely amazing to just relax and we all know I'm slightly addicted to reading. Monday & Tuesday were not too much either. Monday morning it was raining so we went to the garden house because Linda had to drop off a key but other than that I just relaxed even after Linda went to work. Tuesday was about the same...more rain. Wednesday however was a really good day. Linda didn't have to work and it was raining so we headed to Arhus, a town about an hour from Vejle. There we went to the Aros museum. Now, if you've read this blog at all over the past 5 months then you know I've been to a LOT of museums. I must say, however, that this one, was one of my favorites.  The permanent collection was pretty small, the more modern part of it being the most interesting. But they had three exhibitions as well; "I Love You," "Jacob Holdt's America," and "Adam Saks Visual Voodoo." The first floor also had the 9 dark rooms which were each set up with different installation pieces. The I love you one was beautiful...and intriguing. It had everything from love portrayed as love, to bondage, to almost abuse.  It interested me that school groups were going through, I know some of it is nothing my parents would have wanted me to see at that age, another difference of culture. The Holdt's one was moving because if you don't know who he is he is a photographer who travels around the USA documenting the "real" America. There were photos of the KKK, of mass murderers teaching their children to use guns, a man that Holdt was playing pool against and the man had to step outside to murder someone, couples of all races, people dying of cancer, the rich, the poor...most of what was set up was pictures from the 70s and I really want to see more of his work. The Voodoo work was the least of my favorite but work about the devil, using water colors. The museum also has a giant boy, "The Boy," he looks like Golum (sp?) from Lord of the Rings if you ask me, but he is amazing still. I don't know what it was about the museum, but it was worth every cent. From there we went to a Bazar to buy some fresh veggies, the grocery store, and home.

Today and yesterday have been back to just relaxing, no going outside though thanks to the rain that comes and goes all day. I've been reading though, working on some applications, and enjoying having time to catch up with some people. In the past few days I have seen some good movies I'd like to share though: I Dreamed of Africa (based on a true story), Fried Green Tomatoes, MILK, and Don Juan DeMarco (with Johnny Depp). Check them out :)

An interesting thing I've learned: In European cemeteries, the families buy the allotted land for only a certain amount of time, in Denmark 20 years/Holland 100, after that time the bodies are dug up and put into a general hole. I kind of wonder if we'll run out of space in the states and this will eventually happen there too...either way...I don't like it.

I'm still loving Denmark, rain or not, and preparing myself for the readjustment back home. I have 2 1/2 weeks left. We don't have many plans, which is okay by me (more okay if the weather gets better), so I'm going to try to turn off my brain from over thinking things back home, which I had been doing really well at, and just try to relax. I'm so used to having so much to do that this whole relaxing thing is new to me.

I'll probably write in another week or so...by then I really should have started packing (AHHH!).

<3